im bored.i cant sleep.
my eye bag is getting worse.im hungry and its so frustrating.

AND IM BLOGGING SO LIKE NO ONE BUSINESS..becoz im so happy with the new blogskin i ve came up with:).and did i even mention tt..i ignore my bf and me,spending 4 hours infront of this screen just to have sucha a simple layout?


k tt is pretty pathetic.
niwaes..


ytd raf make me a happy girl.:)


get well soon bf.

i cant W-A-I-T.
HEHEHE.
we are meeting up like in a few more hours...
really hope raf will take his mc:(.


im so missing out hanging with huge no of friends..
geez.

BEAUTIFUL

days to be part of the memories...:)
be it..good nor bad..

I REMEMBER THIS DAY.AND WILL NEVER EVER FORGET IT.
THANK YOU SO MUCH BF FOR PAMPERING ME STILL AND WITH UNLIMTED AFFECTION.
ILY.ALOT:)

still remember the day that we met I hold on to every word you said
Asked me to surrender and thats what i did and you broke my heart again and again

i would have done anything in the world for you I would have done anything that you told me too.
but now ure just confusing me.

no.
i dont want to give up on you.



i love you so much for ol what u have done to make it up to me.
i love you indeed.


ure there without fail.


its just me.

i m just geeting it ol back once again.
forgive me.its hurting me to see u suffer.



i dont want to be mean to you.but i cant help it with tons of emotions im feeling about you and the things happening.
i want YOU TO BE HAPPY.
tats ol.even its without me.
i be fine.juat before if it happens..
forgive me and forget me.

You're everything I thought you never were
And nothing like about you could've been
But still you lived inside of me
So tell me how is that

You're the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I loved and not forgive
And though you've break my heart
You're the only one

And though there are times when I hate you
Cause I can't erase the times that you hurt me
And put tears on my face
And even now I hate you its pains me to say
I know I'll be there at the end of the day

I don't wanna be without you babe
I don't want a broken heart
Don't wanna to take breath without you babe
I don't want to play that part
I know that I love you but let me just say
I don't wanna love you in no kinder way, no no
I don't want a broken heart
I don't want to play the broken-hearted girl
No broken-hearted girl


There's something that I feel I need to say
But up 'til now I've always been afraid
That you would never come around
And still I wanna put this out
You say you got the most respect for me
But sometimes I feel your not deserving of me
And still you're in my heart
But you're the only one

And yes there are times when I hate you
But I don't complain
Cause I've been afraid that you would walk away
Oh but now I don't hate you I'm happy to say
That I will be there at the end of the day

i love you.
i mean it.i swear.

its gonna be 2010:)



im soo gona come up with new resolutions...weeeeee.....



last but not least.i love my BF:)

"Letting go of someone dear to you is hard, but holding on to someone who doesn't even feel the same is much harder. Giving up doesn't mean you are weak! It only means that you are strong enough to let go"




geez....life is hard.but i got to stop make it harder to breathe.





found this too..

i was like working from 2 till 1130 just now.
reach home,bathe,eat and stuck here infront of the pc.
TILL....
its 638am now.
i cant sleep still.
its stupid.felt stupid.hungry.

ate nachos,magggie and fried egg.
still hungry.



just finish watching...






yeah was funny...



i miss raf so much.

lately his been having sore eyes and kinda been sleeping like every min of the day...be it morning or nite...


his eyes were bad...
met him the other nite..and rreally pity him dearly,,
get well soon dear..

it really makes me sad..seeing him so weak...
it gets worser coz i swear i miss him soo much.
raf get well soon k...
i wana have a good lunch with u and i wan hold ur hand badly:(..

it felt so wrong though it has only been 2 days ince we last met..
i can really feel something is missing out in my life...

i really could not afford to beep him every min nor hour..becoz i know its hard for him to txt me with eyes close and i dont wan to disturb his rest.
insyallah he will b alrite k.




niwaes...

i was thinking to find something to see to keep my heart contented with anythingor u know to get out from boredom...
i came across this guy..






chrming rght??/
heehehe;D



raf gon toast me nytime soon then...


alrite folks..
i think its time i lay my head on my pillow...

but b4 that..
i just wana say that..


no matter what i say nor do..
no one can replace this pretty boy which i have never fail to fall in love with for 15months..







this boy who noes how to make me laugh ,smile n at the same time..CRY.


i love u bf:)

get well soon...

i want to hold ur hand..
squeeze ur fingers...
i love u.




love u god.
love u bf:)
morning peeps..

-.-


loves naz..

I'm looking for a lover not a friend
Somebody who can be there when I need someone to talk to
I'm looking for someone who won't pretend
Somebody not afraid to say the way they feel about you

And I'm looking for someone who understands how I feel,
Someone who can keep me real and who knows always
Baby I like to have you in my way
And I'm looking for someone who takes me there,
Wants to share, shows he cares
Thinking on the one that I've been waiting for

Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?

Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me? (Could you be?)
Could you be the one I need?

I'm looking for someone to share my pain (Uh)
Someone who I can run to, who would stay with me when it rains
Someone who I can cry with trough the night
Someone who I can trust who's hardest right
And I'm looking for someone

And I'm looking for someone who understands how I feel,
Someone who can keep me real and who knows always
Baby I like to have you in my way
And I'm looking for someone who takes me there,
Want to share, shows he cares
Thinking on the one that I've been waiting for

Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?

Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be this one I need?

Take for grant
How much I care (How much I care)
And appreciates that I'm there
Someone who listens
And someone I can call who isn't afraid of thought to share

Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?

Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?

which of this has the best hair colur for me...
hmph....

loTS to BLOG TODAY:)



i need a new hairdo.
new colour change maybe .....jennifer love hewiit hair colour??

trim my hair.
get it done with best hair products.
wana shop alot of food.
will get buddies,bf and me go shop shop?
heheh:)

i wana stock up food in my bags.
remind myself to eat.


hehehe...
i really think its sweet to talk about ur love ones and ur best story u shared with them...
and oh,how they make u melt each time they are around you.
yes indeed.
my boyfriend.
we are alive,still holding on for 14 months.
im not gona say nicest to things about my bf today..but really some ill thoughts about him...forgive me..

hehehehkz.
like real only ar..
hahaha.of coz not.


u noe @ times when ure so mad... u tend to say things like
"his the bad man i ever knew,
i will never step ahead with a man like him"..
and there u go..bla bla bla..




im sucha an idiotu know..
not for what ive ssaid to him or not about trying to please him..or telling everyone his a good boyfren u can ever had.
NO.ITS NOT THAT.

i ve realised so many things now.


i gotta stop complaining.
ive gotta stop complaining about almost anything.
to why he cant do thus and that to me.
i ve gotta stop thinking that his been ol bad to me..though he make mistakes ,ive gota stop thinking im an angel.im not.yes human beings make mistkes.even i.
i may be the worse creature ever if i got that thought of'i dont make any mistake bitch'.


his a nice man to me..though we have soo much of disagreements in life about why are do u do this and that..but stiil..its life?
i realised that god created human beings and let them live in diff situations for REASONS.
the reasons maybe becoz...
he wants us to learn from one another the hard life could do..
learn from one another weakness and make it the strongest strength.


y do i say his a nice man?

becoz...he changes within time...

he slowly learning to accept me and so i hope it goes on for long...

he neevr fails to be there.


he now who never had talk about breakup,,really impress me with the courage and strength.


its something beautiful.
i dont wish to end tis relationship anywhere..

but still...
i hand it over to..
love itself as it will took everything down for reasons.


for now...the KEYWORD IS.
TO learn to APPRECIATE FOR WHT U GOT.

im having life chain breakdown.
im losing my good friends at the tips of fingers.
i neglect ol of them.
bf wants me to get them ol back no matter whta it takes.
i will k..i promised.
its been totally hectic 3 months.im still figuring out my life.
i hate it when it feels like im hanging in the air.
i put my friends aside thinking that as soon i can figure out what i want in life..i will be back with them being a better persn.i such a lousy fren.
god..
pls help my frineds dfuring their tough times since they ahve been sucha an angel to me..especially during my dark times..

this goes too my dearest buddies...,jayastina(i miss u babe),farhan.

i will be back soon,i just need some time with my life right now.
im sorry if i put u guys on hold.
forgive for neglecting u guys.
i dont blame u guys for gettinng mad.

no matter what.i will never forget ur deeds towards me.

Labels: Ffi

I WANT TO EAT.

IM NOT ASLEEP TILL NOW..AMAZING RIGHT??

IM HUNGRY..NEDD LOTSSA FOOD..
boyfren asleep...and im awake??hahha..
it has always been another way round...
his so tired..slept during the bus journey home just now..and yes..he did....
it again...
hahahah..tired ehh....kesiannnnye...
but REALLY
I LAPAR LAR NOW:(

THIS PICTURES ARE SCARING ME OFF.

REALLY.

the whole point of me blogging about this is because....



as most of the people who knew me...
im pretty skinny as it lies around in my genes..
mum was skinny before when she younger...
and infct all my iblings were pretty skinny too...
but tiil now..i wonder..y none follow dad?
dad is pretty fleshy...
heheh..now worse...huhu^.^


ok...im gona talk about this..
BEING SKINNY.


THERE ALWAYS THE ADVANTAGES AND THE DIS..


im having this difficulties of getting myself sit down and have a proper meal at proper time..
im lack of discipline here..
and that cause so much of it.
i only eat when im hungry..other than that...i will tend to skip my meals or worse.
forget about HAVING TO EAT.

its not i want to starve myself...
but relly been working on a tight schdhule..so i dont get eat like 5-6 meals a day...
hate it so much.
wanna gain weight badly.
so i could go sky diving some day...
hahaha.random alrite?


im getting bored with how ppl come to me and say..
"naz..go makn lar..."
"naz..u got to et girl"


ok alrite.its time.
im gona make a change.

im gona put efforts once again in trying to improve certain areas of my life.

i know i can do it.
i want tio fit comfortably into my white dress..which i wanted to wear it badly..:(
heheh...u know as im writing this up...
ppl might think.."this gal is sommekind mad o wat?ppl are trying hard to lose weight..here she is writing this up about gaining some pounds??"

hahahkz...yeah.i feel funny as im writing this up...but this is just what i feel like sharing...wh noes u guys wil help me in gaining some pounds...
hahah..and wir do cook for me more of cheesy pasta kkkk?


i need a certainly cahnges in my life.


seriously i need to get up and knock down ol those shits and bad deeds in my head and heart.
i know ive been such a pathetic mean person ol this while...
for ol such words ive been saying about bitches and those fugly nonsense.
i need a change.
change for good:)k?


im so going out of point...

hehehes.
let me add abit more.

a reminder naz..
its not about having bigger body or bigger boopies or worse having the sexiest killer bod..to have that high confidence level.
u got to love urself first for now u r.be grateful first then u ought for changes..and that change is not for other people pleasure..but its about having changes in ur life to prove tht ure capable of anything in life to make u feel gret inner side of urself and that=beautiful person..


:).


ps:random thought.
being skinny isnt any good.fat?worse nightmare.
but isnt being imperfect is why we are brought down to earth?
so that we cud see if person really loves as as much as how god has created us..
hmmm...life is pretty hard...


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written by a guy
ps:MUST READ.
Found it when i was doing blohopping...knock some sense..
i mean 'some'.heez..




We don’t care if you talk to other guys. We don’t care if you’re friends with other guys. But when you’re sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the room and you jump up and tackle him, without even introducing us, yeah, it pisses us off. It doesn’t help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes without even acknowledging the fact that we’re still there.

We don’t care if a guy calls or texts you, but at 2 in the morning we do get a little concerned. Nothing is that important at 2 a.m.

Also, when we tell you you’re pretty / beautiful / gorgeous / cute / stunning, we freaking mean it. Don’t tell us we’re wrong. We’ll stop trying to convince you.

The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence. Yeah, you can quote me.

Don’t be mad when we hold the door open.

Take advantage of the mood we’re in.

Let us pay for you! Dont “feel bad” We enjoy doing it. It’s expected. Smile and say “thank you.

Kiss us when no one’s watching. If you kiss us when you know somebody’s looking, we’ll be more impressed.

You don’t have to get dressed up for us. If we’re going out with you in the first place, you don’t have to feel the need to wear the shortest skirt you have or put on every kind of makeup you own.

We like you for who you are and not what you arent. Honestly, i think a girl looks more beautiful when she’s just in her pj’s or my tshirt and boxers, not all dolled up.

Don’t take everything we say seriously. Sarcasm is a beautiful thing. See the beauty in it. Don’t get angry easily.

Don’t talk about how hot Chris Brown, Brad Pitt, or Jesse McCartney is in front of us. It’s boring, and we don’t care. You have girlfriends for that.

Whatever happened to the word “handsome” / “beautiful”?

Girls, I cannot stress this enough: if you aren’t being treated right by a guy, dont wait for him to change.

Ditch his sorry butt, disgrace to the male population and find someone who will treat you with utter respect.

Someone who will honor your morals.
Someone who will make you smile when you’re at your lowest.
Someone who will care for you even when you make mistakes.
Someone who will love you, no matter how bad you make them feel.
Someone who will stop what they’re doing just to look you in the eyes….and say “i love you” and actually mean it.

Give the nice guys a chance.




SO DOES THIS ACTUALLY MEANT FOR MOST OF THE GUYS ON EARTH?

IF IT IS..I REALLY DO APPRECIATE THIR PRESENCE:)